Boxing day at 2:46 am

So... Just spent Christmas day at my dad's and was hoping to get a podcast out but not had chance to do it yet (See the below word "worried"). Not gonna lie, actually feeling rather lonely. Nobody seems talkative any more. Oh well poor me and all that. I'm on my 6th Kopperberg (Strawberry and lime one) as i have a thing for them at the moment.

I've been going to bed at 5am lately and been a bit worried about how long its gonna take me to do all this work for uni. Mainly reading because it takes me forever to understand it - I got my report back from the dyslexia thing and the reason it takes me forever to read is down to reading comprehension which means I need to use my own way to understand what I'm reading better. Also i need to be tired enough to sleep on the sofa, so I've been waking up about 12-ish. Sorry par!

Not sure what's happening for new year. Seeing as i'm skint i might just go back to Cheltenham, offer some friends round and stuff. If not I've had some offers which i'd really like to take up but i need cash (See the above word "Skint").

The juicy bit... I didn't get so much for Christmas but happy with what i did get. A big JD Picture, some Jelly Cola Bottles, Muppets in Space DVD. That's it so i'm gonna get myself some stuff I think.

Anyway I suppose i should go to sleep. Feeling kinda hungry after this alcohol though.

Its really... yeah

Having a christmas back in Swindon - And that's all I'll say about that. But I'll be at my mum's later today for Christmas eve dinner. I've been watching some youtube videos, so have a lovely listen to these. They are from December - various years, so these were in the charts when we were all celebrating Christmas Hope they make you smile :D

Just an odd thought before hand though. If the Duke of Edinborough dies on christmas day or New Year... does the nation go into morning dispite christ's birth or the celebrations of a new year? Which one is more important?

I have informed the cat his sentence. "Sammy your mouth smells inside".

Working on podcast as we speak. Expected release date on Christmas Day bot don't quote me on that



Here is the videosss :D. Merry Christmas.






I'd rather be in the Hulk's gang

Yes, the week.

So just a quick one to say things before bed time. A few hours ago i managed to hand in an assignment to deadline. And i also got another back where i got a 2.1 which to be fair im happy with. first uni assignment which i guess was good. I think i'm less stressed out now.

I was getting a bit worried about uni with assignments because i realised i was taking longer than others to get work done but apparently it's a form of Dyslexia... so now i know how to handle that - i have to start earlier. Yeah... great lol.

Apparently i can't cram and taking notes is hard so i cant leave it til thw last day because i'll be late. So if i'd had support in college when all my work was late in then i would have been better with college but cant blame them. So yeah. this blogs hardly read anyway

Bed Time

Note to self :P

Note to self

I am my own worst enemy. Especually when it comes to keeping friends or getting too :S about stuff.

End

CHRISTMAS is a sellout

Ok so i'm getting dressed and since i got up i've been wanting to leave this post so i'd better hurry up about it because i have to go out in a bit.

There are 2 types of Christmas. Christmas and CHRISTMAS.

Christmas is warm. It is all about fun and santa. It invites you and is all about cookies and lovely tinkly things. You sit around the TV that's been decorated with Christmas lights eating crusty rolls, and is always celebrated with a christmas party in a pub surrounded by golden things in one of those booths with a bottle of champaign on every table on ice (Which the kids nick... the ice, not the champers). The TV has nice original stories on it. The radio plays songs a nice mixture of songs that dont over do it. and Christmas morning is getting a selection box, eating all the sweets other than the crunchie (Which you fob off to the nearest brother). Christmas starts when YOU want it to and builds up to the big day, and is a black forest gateau with real white cream and cherries you can clearly recognise ate cherries.

CHRISTMAS is cold. It is Evil. It is SLADE ON REPEAT. It is every shop you walk into playing "I Wish It Could Be Christmas Every Day". CHRISTMAS starts on November 25th in full on mode and is a total sell out. It is a money grabbing monster you get nothing back from with no real spirit. It is getting something really pants instead when you'd really appreciate getting nothing more than that peice of poundland christmas based item like a tie or socks (Or in my case a T-shirt i can only wear at Christmas) when to be honest they could have put that money into MAKING a christmas card with proper love attached. It's Chitty chitty bang bang, Oliver!, Wonderful life, Waterbabies and Christmas film marathons on EVERY CHANNEL. It's something you drown in because if you don't drown in it people ask where your christmas spirit is. There is hardly no love involved, just what you're going to get, driven by heartless media and retail. It's exactly what it says on the tin - CHRIST - Which is what you say when you open a present someone gives you, and MAS - Mass sellout. Everyone goes over the top. And this is what i cant handle because it ruins the whole thing.

So if i retreat to building a tent in the garden or switching on the Wii to get away from it then it's getting a bit much for me.

Gotta Go!

Why do people do things!

Ok so i'm in a little bit of a mood over people. I'm keeping this mystical because i'm not comfortable revealing the whole stuff but its enough for me to want to blog it. The past is the past thought, other people made decisions and people were messed about. I'd like to leave it there and look at positive things for the future. Im not saying there isnt a friendly future for that person but anything more will not happen. But just the fact it happend has definatly put a downer on me to yeah. Thanks for that.

So i'm here having a chill drink. In a confused thing about something else. And also i'm a bit meh about uni stuff this week. Not really enjoying things this evening to be honest. I ate a box of chocolates that was on cheep - as mentioned yesterday - Didn't last long to be honest. Gave me a headache if anything. All i know is that Nirvana songs will not help in this mood.

Lol i should do something happy before i sleep so i'm not all meh in the morning.

What i'm talking about

I'm currently listening to the Peacock and Gamble podcast with loads of crazy thoughts and soppy things going through my head. This is not cool things for guys to be thinking. It's pretty soppy gloopy girly things guys don't do. It's like... Am i like... mental or something or am i seeing way too much into something? darn it i shouldnt let this effect me! its not a bad thing and i dont mind it being out in the open but seriously... do i gotta pull myself together?

It's weird listening to this podcast because they are talking about the launch of the ipad and Steve Jobs as its podcast.

Hey i got well suspicious yesterday. I think the co-op in getting used to me and the girl at the till asked me if i liked chocolate. I knew it was cos she was going to try and sell me something on cheep but my reaction must have been so odd. It was something like:

Co-op girl is putting my items into the bag:

Girl: "Do you like chocolate?"

Me: "Do i like chocolate? Uhh... it depends"

girl: "Depends on what?"

Me: "What chocolate it is and where it's from"

Girl: "Heros and roses"

Me: "Oh cool"

Girl carries on her sell. i think she was taken back by my suspicion though.

Girl: "They're uhh.. down from from £4 [something] to £2 [something] and [bla bla]

Me: "That sounds cool, i cant do it today though"

Clutching my £2

It was just an odd moment, maybe it wasnt worth sharing but yeah.

Did the show last night where i had my character the birthday worm do a christmas party. Another show tomorrow for in the dark. I'm looking forward to actually getting some decent sleep because this morning i had to get up at 9... i got up at 10 still knackered. even during the week felt like id not had enough hours. I just feel actual power drained at the moment, but actually really creative.

Anywhale im deciding if i want to go to bed now or not. Blog again maybe tomorrow, whatever my mind spews out on random.

CHRISTMAS! TOYS R US... WTF

Toys r us... what the fuck are you playing at? Nobody wants to be a fucking toys r us kid. This actually puts me off from going to toys r us. I may not be a kid but if Ruby came up to me and said she was a toys r us kid just look disappointed. And surely i have more money than a kid so i could just walk in and buy stuff without asking my dad. Kinda. I still ask him for cash when i'm skint so a trip to toys r us is no different than it was in the mid-90s - but this is not the point.

If it's not broken don't fix it. The old advert was fine, just change the end so its not 25 years again. The only problem with the old one - doesn't mention things kids want anymore. They want ipod, a new phone, fags maybe. Kids still want bikes i guess - and the advert features skates (Which were big when the original ad cam out in 1989 - i had a pair).

But how do they fix it? they make this whole advert with a song that doesnt rhyme properly well if at all and nick the sleigh idea from the film "Santa Claus" cutting the Reindeer out of the equation.

And do they mention the MP3 players, phones, or anything cool? Bikes, Trains, Video games. Video games are probably the nearest thing to anything cool. It's a bit misleading though. A bike's not a toy. you can ride that, but as far as getting a life size train in your front room?

What dick heads.

I just had a great idea for a podcast! I could do it on Adverts!

World Music

I do think long and hard before putting a video up. The first thing that happens is i find something really pantsy and then go mad on the other things in my head. I thought pan pipes at first... then that linked to the song "The lonely shepard" from kill bill - then randomly went on to the video you see above (The Fry's Turkish Delight ad) obviously hand made by ex-class mate Elsa Fry 20 years before she was a pip - and i don't think she's Turkish much so they lied on that one. sorry guys.

Missed the lesson by the way due to too much sleep/lack of sleep. Not sure whether you could blame it down to that i needed more sleep or that i hadnt had enough.

Something i forgot to mention last night - When i got back from my social last night at about midnight, I found the gate, front door, and a bedroom door wide open. When i looked in the room there was my house mate conked out with his clothes on backwards. Trousers half way down. Snoring loud enough to wake the county. It either looked like:

1 - He staggerd home with great difficulty, and too drunk to realise he should of closed the door

or

2 - Got in, got pissed, someone burst in, gave him bum love and left as quick as they came.

I assumed option 1. When he woke up he told me about that his clothes were backwards because he was being the backwards man from the film Freddie got fingered. He also discovered that he'd some how baught a chicken sandwich on the way home and his belt was missing - adding more points to the bum love possibility.

Christmas

Why have i never properly blogged about christmas? im not going to start now

Day today and The Welsh

Well the day wasn't so bad i guess. I did what i said i was going to along with some shopping and got some sweets :D

Went to the radio social. only 3 from my year again. One of my gripes with facebook is how people answer to invitations. It works simple. Press "Going" if you are pretty sure your going. Why don't you just press no if you have no intention on going? It makes things easier for everyone. If you are unsure press but could go just click "maybe" and if if you know you are not going to come for other reasons don't just press "Maybe" to be polite! Press No. Just be blunt and everyone will be cool. Other than that it was pretty cool.

I did get asked for my ID at wetherspoons though! would be understandable if i wasnt 27! I'm still having the same problem.

Hot topic lately especially with uni - the Welsh. Someone put their status as something like "They banned smoking in welsh playgrounds - Let's just ban the welsh". Ok that i guess was a little bit funny. However i actually quite like the Welsh. Would this class as racism though? You couldn't swap the word "Welsh" with "Indian" because you'd get killed or something from the police so if it's not fair on Indians then why should it be on the Welsh? Surely the Welsh are picked on enough aren't they? And surely if you are at uni with someone the last thing you wanna do is slag off their culture. Just because we might not be so hot on our own heritage who are we to insult that of others? that too pisses me off.

When i was a teenager i thought the Welsh girl next door (Alison) was a really nice person (She spoke way sexy too). But that aside I've never had an unpleasant personal moment with a Welsh. Leave them be.

Anyway i dunno why i said all that rubbish but still it's something to blog innit.

Popular music lecture in the morning. Going to struggle waking up. Totally gone into student life with the sleeping patern.

Have a cool day and that.

Laying on the bed

So i'm laying on the bed just thinking about going to sleep. i have a couple of bits and bobs tomorrow like making a presentation, taking books back and doing something for this puppet voice over.

My mood brightened throughout the day but i'm still in a bit of a mood for reasons unknown. I think it was to do with a dream i had last night. Lol wheres Hayley when i need her :P

Anyway i'd better sleep i guess. Night yoo!

Oh no today.

Some days when i wake up i'm happy and raring to go. Other days i just wish they would hurry up and pull the trigger :P - Bit harsh considering that i might regret writing that at some point and i don't believe in deleting posts. Also note i say "They" meaning it's probably going to happen one day, just not by me - or something. Maybe im being cynical. Probably. Also note that i am not encouraging the act of anybody shooting anyone else. That's just upsetting. (Not intentionally making reference to Jeremy Clarkson but if the shoe fits).

Not sure why but i'm not in my happy mood today. The first chance i get to break away today i will. I think i've figured that if i go to bed feeling down then i wake up in hell in the morning.

Anyway enough of my all happy life because i need to go and do university studying and shit.

Laters

Band... Uni... Other Gubbins

So as you may have read since my last post i'm now at University. Yep, my two years at college paid off. Hopefully will the 3 years in uni. The 5 years extra education i probably should have had 9 years ago. Still... It's happening now. In my first year doing Radio Production. Everyone at the moment seems pretty cool. I say "at the moment" because although i hope i never have an at least slight fall out with someone it will probably happen some day but it will repair.

I've managed to team up a lot of the time with Robin (Who's 18 from Gloucester) and Jelmer (Who is 20 - i think - and is an international student from the Netherlands). We all do a radio show together which is almost totally made up on the spot and quite funny because we all come out with such random stuff. At uni we're also sometimes joined by Fred who is also cool.

Anyway some how during a conversation during the show Robin, Jelmer and I decided that we were going to form a band (Originally called "Girl Band" - This name was to die within 24 hours of it's creation) and since then we've been talking about how to do it considering we're all skintyfied and don't have our own instruments so a lot has been about overcoming that.

Everything else at uni... seems to be ok. The only downside - and i don't mind people seeing this - is that certain people are still in their own little groups and really i'd like to get to know some of them better, but i'm guessing that some people might just not be interested in that. Still it's best to be friendly with everyone and help out when needed as usual :) However i think there is 1 person i get the feeling they actually hate me, it's ok because i don't hate anybody and if they hate me that's their decision.

It's cool we're talking to the second years too and people from other courses. Out team doesn'nt seem as close as the one at college but still it's all good. I think the work is going ok but i had a weird thought earlier. Am i on the right course?? I mean i get the radio thing, i love doing it, However...

When i went to college i had to consider the visual side of things and doing animation and really seeing things a bit broader. How people looked at what we were doing and making a connection with the audience some how. On this course there still is the connection and how it's seen, but now i don't have to consider the visual side any more unless it was the one i wanted to put in the listeners head. I kind of miss it to be honest but now i've started this im not gona give it up.

The Creative media module for instance. It was pretty confusing to start with but after we started the second task i got used to it. It was the kind of stuff we did at college and by the looks of it we'll be covering things i've already learnt about. Maybe i'll learn something i forgot or in more detail. For a second i thought that maybe Creative Media might be my thing. but thinking again i think if i did another course i'd probably see the radio production students and think "I'm on the wrong Course".

I'm hoping to get involved with other uni projects so i can stay involved with film one way or another. I recently became the voice of a Sock Puppet which will be recorded in January.

My course seems to be going well at the moment. Having problems reading things for my assignments because my attention seems to dwindle quickly when i'm reading which is very annoying.

In other gubbins my flat - well for a bit i lived back at my dads, now i'm in Cheltenham living with a house mate. My Kitchen is alive. I HATE the kitchen. I dont like going in it. Especially late at night. Its like it breathes.

I don't really have anybody here to speak to or spend time with doing other stuff outside of uni. I have a couple of friends from Swindon and Chippenham, who message me and phone and talk every so often but one person who knows exactly what's ticking along in this fat head of mine is the one furthest away from me. It's like that smiths sone "The closer i get the further away you get" or something like that. Part wish it was different. Darn you student finance! :)

Anyway i suppose i'd better get into bed and sleep as i have to be in by 9:15 and have no money for some milk. It's also late so Night!

Whats Goin Down Bruv?

Hey

Well i'm updating this because my friend Hayley (who is probably reading this) got me looking at some previous posts and thought i should update.

Current statuses:

Relationship: Single

Occupation: Student at University Of Gloucestershire studying Radio Production (BA Hons)

Location: Cheltenham

Living with: Uni student Luca in a basement flat.

Current mind status: Present, slightly unhinged but in working condition.

Emotional Status: Alright.

Radio Shows: Johnny robinson Show (Friday 6-8pm) and In the Dark (Sunday 12-3pm)

Message:

I think i should update this more. I will probably forget like all the other times but maybe this will help me remember lectures and show creativity how i used to... so if this is the case im setting some new rules:

1: Not let girls get the better of my posts - unless its funny and are close. If i like them enough i'll mention their name in the case that it needs to me mentioned.

2: Not let feelings mess with my posts. I put this rule on Facebook and i think it works.

3: Try not to blog about anyone at uni in the way i did with Coliseum because they can all see what i wrote about them now and although they cant prove it was them... well i wouldn't want this to happen at Uni, although it would be funny.

Maybe more i might post up... enjoy the song.

I dont look like nick frost

I dont look like nick frost