I done It

 I completed my reports/essays. I'm pretty sure I've not done so great on them. It's all about the problem with Genres and a report on the Genre of my choice. It's done now anyway. Just need some ink.

So I've stopped mentioning certain things on here... but now i need to do it from life. Stop letting things get to me! Partial reason I've not been sleeping is because of the stupid things keeping me up. Stupid Ex friends, Deleted, Uni work - I should just do it when i get it instead of hoping it will go away. Focus on people who really show me that they are there for me whether they are friends or more. I get so stupid over things and that's only because of other things in my life.

I do think I'll be alone forever relationship wise though, which is always a downer because i don't want to be by myself any more, but i also don't think that just anyone will do. or just anyone who wants to do the relationship thing because i'll do, or they have nothing better going on.

Maybe i should just forget the whole concept of that and shut my feelings in a box. So me along with everyone else in the world are dancing spoons that bobble around talking in jargon to eachother. All with drawn on smiles our faces and unable to shatter the breakable inner box so daily spoon life is always happy with darling rainbows every day. Scribbled happy faces greet you as you wake up every day with meaningful phrases like "You will be alright" and remembering this fixes every problem that life throws at you. I'm not sure how the person with the positive support on the wall knows all this but they are always right - as long as i keep it in mind.

More Deletes

Well this is a blog with a break from the norm. Hopefully i'll try and detract attention to it over the next few days by writing something funny.

Maybe i shouldnt have written oh here tonignt. Oh the life of a creative is such fun because you can say anything on a blog with a monents tiredness whether its just an ironic and cynical joke not and people just have to go with you when you say it's a joke. Which it is obviously. The only down side about positivity is that there is always something that can bring you down i guess.

I have uni in over an hour... maybe i should try and sleep!

Laters yoooo :P