Digging and Digging

So i'm back now, and thats another 2 things ticked off my list.

Do the radio show - TICK
Do my Tax Return - TICK

The tax return was one of them things i was putting off till the last minute. I have some Uni work that needs doing now. But thats another "I'd like to put you off, but if I do I will be a little stuffed". My sleepy tiredness is getting in the way again. Last night I actually had a decent sleep and really not sure why I'm tired again!

I am going to put this question out to you and if you get this then let me know... atleast it means someone knows what I mean. I told one of my friends quite a lot of stuff about me, because I think they would understand why i acted certain ways. Thing is i feel like along the way i said something that would perceive me as not the way I am. It kinda got me worried what they thought of me and I ended up telling this very long story that I only tell my very close friends - In the hope they would get it and i would repair. But I think it made things worse. And now i feel like that because of that story which was supposed to explain why i am like i am i think i just sound like a freak and it made me even more worried! GAH!

Now so far they have done like they said so i have no need to doubt them. But I do... Even though i trust they are ok with me i still feel like they arn't. And i'm thinking "well... am i going to be like this no matter what they say?". And also im in the position where i would really like to talk to them and carry on as normal but they need space at the moment. So yeah. Confusion. Thats what happens when you dig holes. You try and get yourself out of it but you keep digging!

Also... Don't you hate it when you see someone you know in the street and you say "hi" and they just look back as in to say "I don't know you" or just ignore you? A polite "Hello" or a smile or a nod would have been fine instead of the usual grump face this person gives me as in to say "Fuck you". I have no idea why they even grump faced at me in the first place. I try and start a convo and i get ignored. WTF! The least they could say is why the hell they are doing it. I think on this situation i'm not the one with the problem.

Anyway Its out of my system now! - As far as my hole... i think i'll jump in now! Or i might just Jump in the bed hole.