Nice Day

I had a pretty cool day today. It wasnt amazing but i guess it was one of those days that made me think stuffs not so bad.

I was talking about my past last night and its been on my mind lately, plus the other day (From my last post as you can see) i wasn't in a very happy mood and things were getting to me more than they should have, and over the next few weeks i'll have to revisit things i dont really like recalling. The first - my listening history in front of class. Radio and music was an escape for me so im hoping that my recolection wont cause me to stumble over things i don't want to mention - because i know that i will talk about it even though i'm really wishing they never asked. I have nothing to hide. Surly i shouldnt look at tomorrow as a day which holds potential fear, and should see it as a day with potential to be a good one.

I think i just like being around people. Certain people more than others. Just people who can understand me and show that someone is bothered and i feel like im not some sort of tag along. I just assume that if im not invited then i would be tagging along or intruding. I kind of feel like that sometimes, but also sometimes i want to break away from groups and try something new.

A lot of times even though people mean well, for one reason or another dont seem to be clicking as quickly as i had hoped. Plus with the crush going on, I'd just like to get to know her as a friend more than anything even if things never happened than that because she's funny and a really good person and someone i'd like to associate with more and keep in touch with after Uni.  Theres other stuff i'd say and atleast i know where i stand. Again - something i think would be hard to say to her as im not good with compliments and i dont wanna look creepy after all thats gone on.

But back to today... I had fun chats about my voice. I dont like my pitch sometimes and the advice was to slouch. Very weird considering that i was always told to sit up straight and not to slouch. I watched Barak Obama win his second term this morning and managed to go to bed about 5ish. I slept till midday (although i had a call at 9 and i think the woman on the phone not only realised she had woke me and not said, i just agreed with everything and wrote my appointment with her down. She seemed a bit "uhh... yeah" after so i hope i didnt say something odd) and had a message from someone at uni which for some reason made me giggle. It wasn't even supposed to be funny, but i took it as a compliment. Went to uni and listened to some stuff my classmates did and it was pretty cool. I was proud of myself that not only was my version of links picked, but was pleased with how i sounded, especially because i felt i sounded natural with a script that wasnt mine, and the dyslexia didnt get too much in the way.

Had fun doing the show and because i was productive in the time i couldnt sleep last night i came to uni with some new (But weird) things for the show which made a few people giggle. To be totally honest if i can make others smile that makes me feel a bit happier. I need more days like this. Days where i can sleep half of it and get all the good in a big splodge. Im finding that i am tired alot and that can effect what mood im in.

Anyway bit long but it gets it off my chest. Its not everything... i hae to save some stuff for real people, i just havnt had the chance to do it yet.

Good Nighty!